I’m trying my best to make certain that I at least post twice a week but last week Friday, I felt like I had nothing really to talk about…..I did…..just wasn’t feeling it, I guess. But this week is a new week and I’m getting the same message from Christ which is to pursue him. During my studies, I read this verse as part of a bible study, “Examine me, O Lord, and try me; Test my mind and my heart.” Ps 26 v 2.
During my pursuit of Christ, I’m being challenged to really take a look at myself, examine my intentions; are they aligned with what Christ has called me to be? From a relationship stand point, have I addressed elephants (plural…LOL) in my room? Am I actively working to grow my relationship with Christ or is a one way street where I’m the only who can make requests? I started thinking to myself, like wow, this relationship thing is hard. But I can and I want to get better at it. Why? Because it will provide me with a lot of freedom, self-confidence and goal setting. These are just some of what I believe I’ll experience but I know there’s always more.
An example of this in my life is that I have relationship baggage. I truly don’t know how to date because what used to happen is, “oh he’s cute……lets bag him” and it becomes official after a few days. Ha if that works for you, that’s great! But in my case…nope. After graduating college, I was in and out of relationships in hopes of finding the one. But not, after my recent break up 3 months ago, I’ve come to realized, first I really didn’t have good examples. Watching K-drama didn’t help either…no offense. What I watched on TV, saw at bars and even at church sometimes weren’t the best examples. So this year again, I’ve decided to challenge myself to not only work on me but really work on friendships that I have. Glean from those who has a successful relationship and isn’t afraid to share the good, the bad and the ugly. One day, my hope is to be in an amazing and successful relationship. Its something that my daughter can look back on and set an expectation not settle for anything less.
I really want to challenge you to have a moment of self-reflection. Ask God…..if you’re ready, to show you what he wants you to do. Be prepared, He will make you uncomfortable to bring you to the final destination.
For those who aren’t believers, I know that there are moments where its a last min quick thing, “God help me” and that’s the end. If life is currently smooth sailing, ask God what do you want from me? Even when it’s not smooth sailing, ask God what do you want from me?