Why do good things happen to bad people?

This question may or may not surprise you or you’re that one person whose like, hell yeah! Why does it seem like they are always getting the upper hand and yet you’re always getting the shorter end of the stick? 

Unfortunately, I don’t have a reason why this is the case but it is something that constantly occurs in our society. First question to ask yourself, what qualifies a person to being a bad person? Do they lie, cheat, or manipulate to getting something that they want or are they just very strong worker that would do anything and everything to be number one or are they born into society with a silver spoon? 

For you as a Christ follower, this question may burden you and you may ask God why is this happening? Why hasn’t my harvest come yet? Again I don’t have the answer. But sitting here on my couch alone, I decided that my mind has been running its wheels on this topic and thought it would be good idea to jot down my thoughts. 

Take a look at Psalms 66:10-12, it says, “For you, God, tested us; you refined us as silver is refined. You lured us into a trap; you placed burdens on our backs. You let men ride over our heads; we went though the fire and water; but you brought us out to abundance.” 

Now why would I choose a God that would test me, put me through trials, place burdens on my back, let men walk right on top of men and look down on me, what’s the point of all of this? Am I stuck in a cycle? It’s crazy to one min want and pray for something to happen and yet get passed over and see it given to someone who is undeserving. 

What am I getting at you ask? Honestly, we are not privy to seeing the bigger picture like God sees it. That loan you got denied for, or that date you didn’t get with that special person doesn’t mean you aren’t qualified. It just means, it wasn’t for you and there’s something better coming for you. God allows us to be tested because he wants to see if we will actually turn to him for guidance or try to take matters into our own hands.

This will happen multiple times until God feels as if you’ve learned the lesson. What’s the lesson? “Lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.”- Proverbs 3:5-6. You may think that God may have forgotten you but he hasn’t, He’s still with you. Abraham and Sarah are prime examples of being passed over in not being parents early in their lives. #Faithfultilltheend

My friends, life doesn’t end when one door closes, it just provides another opportunity for another door to be opened. 

Happy New Year

Psalms 51:10-12 Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from your presence, and take not your Holy Spirit from me. Restore to me the joy of your salvation and uphold me with a willing spirit.

Well, well, well, Happy New Years Everyone! I’m so happy 2019 is there an 2018 is gone. I could definitely say that I’ve grown a lot with my journey with God. Things are being structured and I’m seeking God’s desire over my own.

The passage above really spoke to me in the beginning of this year. I finally get to date, woot! woot! I have a 5 year old now going into kindergartner this year, the worship lead I oversee is growing and growing and I couldn’t be more excited than I am now and lastly the friendships that I’m forming are friendship that will last forever. As we enter 2019, I pray that everyone’s prayer is that God creates a clean heart in you on a regular basis. Why you ask? Asking God to create a clean heart in you allows him and your desires to align together for his glory.

All of the accomplishments that I’ve mentioned above has happened because I’ve learned to let go and let God take control. Every time I say that statement I smile because when I gave up driving stick, I lost the ability to change gears in my car to my own liking. Now that I’ve been driving automatic for 2 years and letting God change the gears….it really hasn’t been that bad. My life has had its ups and downs but I trusted God and he really brought me through.

As a worshiper, a team member, family member we are placed here to further God’s kingdom, creating disciples. I challenge you this year and every other year God allows you to live, to fully surrender your heart to God’s desires. The joy at the end is more than you could ever imagine.

This Is US- The Christmas Story

Oh how I love the Christmas story movie but what love more is the Christmas story from the bible. The Savior of the world, leaving his heavenly throne to come to this earth to save us all. As we get closer to Christmas, it’s a great idea to be reminded of why the Son of God came to earth to save us all and remind us of the message of love, that remains the same yesterday, today and forever more.

Check it out:


Also, I’m excited to announce that because of this sermon, it has motivated me to finally share one of the songs I’ve been working on. Emmanuel, Here’s a quick preview:



This is Us- Prayer life

I really, really love the story of Hannah found in the book of 1 Samuel. It is from here I got my daughter’s name and I found strength to move forward with the decision of becoming a single parent. But what really sticks out from this story is how she prayed reverently and fervently.

“I’ve been praying from the depth of my anguish and resentment” (1 Sam 1:16 CSB)

She prayed to God, her heavenly Father through the good, the bad and the ugly. During my personal time with God the past few days, my mindset was set on gratitude. I found myself being more grateful with God for the things I don’t have and the things that I do have. That I get to see another day, my health is great, I’ve surrounded myself with amazing people, I get the opportunity to serve as a leader, I get to be a part of an awesome church family and best of all I get to be an awesome mom to an amazing, intelligent little girl. Yes there are things that I do want but at this current time, I’m good….real good. I recall there was one night, I got home feeling exhausted, beat and wanting to cuddle and get a foot massage. Yes I could cuddle with my child but it’s not the same and the last time I did ask her to give me a foot massage….lets just say it was the last time I ask a 4-year-old for a foot massage. LOL

So my mind wandered thinking about how others probably had it better because they got to go home to someone,  but then I received a text message which reminded me that I had received a note earlier today and should probably read it.

In the note, it read that, “know that we are constantly praying over you, your family and your ministry faithfully”. Up lifting words that reminded me that God hasn’t forgotten me, and the things that I do, I’m involved, how I witness to others with my walk matters. I as a person mattered!  So instead of drowning in my self-pity party, I prayed. Prayed over the family that blessed me, prayed over those that I get to interact, prayed for my church and community, etc.

So in this Christmas season of giving, lets not lose sight on what matters the most. God’s promise + you = God’s will. IF he will’s it, it will surely happen but in the mean time, remain in constant payer and communion with God.

I’m going to leave you this little song that we used to sing in my old youth group back in the day. Stay bless


Happy Thanksgiving

Matthew 6:33-34 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.


Happy Thanksgiving!! Currently driving back home from a wonderful 1 night trip in Springfield, MA. We got to see the beautiful Christmas lights  in the Springfield Forest Park. It definitely reminded me of the child like excitement that I once had (and still have) when I knew my birthday has passed and I get to help my dad put the tree up and clean the snow outside.

During the drive home, my friend and I were talking about being thankful in all things. The good the bad and the ugly. God knows all of our needs and will supply them according to His riches and glory. Many times we may get lost or caught up in the things that we don’t have or feel some type of when we see another person living the type of life that we’ve always wanted to live. Trust me, what you see on the exterior doesn’t provide the full story or view into someone’s life or situation. That person that you are comparing yourself to, had to have gone through a lot just to be where they are today.

Be grateful for where you are today because there are those who are waiting anxiously for something God hasn’t willed for their lives in general or at this time. We must seek first God’s kingdom, and then all things will be brought into fruition according to His will. Don’t lose sight as to who God has called you and you alone to be. There will never be and can never be another me, because I’m gonna be me. I’m gonna be that girl who always jumps on hotel beds while on vacation because I refuse to do it on my own bed. LOL Be grateful for your health, safety of your family, for friends who are like family and has been your support system, where you live, good situations and bad situations and be grateful for the love of God that through it all He still loves, he’s still faithful.

Be Still and know that He is God!

Happy Thanksgiving

Worship in my Everything

Ha, so we meet again! Yes I did take a little break but it was only for a week so I don’t fall back. So I’ve been going through a change. A change/growth that has been allowing me to get my bible geek-ness on. I’ve shared this topic in my small group and realized how it is important for me to continually put it into practice; that is to worship in my every season.

At times I feel like I’m in a batting cage and the baseballs keeps coming, sometimes I hit the balls and sometimes I miss them. You ever feel that way? Well, I found encouragement in the word which is found in Acts 16: 16-40. The story begins where Paul and Silas were falsely imprisoned because they were accused of teaching false customs to the Roman people. That’s a lie! What had actually happen was they had rid an evil spirit from a young lady who was able to tell the future. But that wasn’t the reason why they rid the evil spirit, it was because Paul was fed up with her following them around and being loud and obnoxious of who they were. When her owner’s found out that she was no longer to tell the future, they were pissed. No mo big money!

“25 Around midnight Paul and Silas were praying and singing hymns to God, and the other prisoners were listening. 26 Suddenly, there was a massive earthquake, and the prison was shaken to its foundations. All the doors immediately flew open, and the chains of every prisoner fell off!” (Acts 16: 25-26)”

As humans, we tend to complain to others of our issues or internalize the situation in an attempt to correct the issue in our own time and in our own ways. Honestly, I’ve tried both and it hasn’t truly brought me the best results. What I have realized is that when I worship, it feels as if a load or a burden has been alleviate off of my shoulders. You may not be the best singer or prayer warrior but God still wants your worship. He wants to know that you know that he’s got it all under control, you need not to worry.  Matthew 11:28-30 states, 28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

Psalms 16: 4-5, “Troubles multiply for those who chase after other gods. I will not take part in their sacrifices of blood or even speak the names of their gods. Lord, you alone are my inheritance, my cup of blessing. You guard all that is mine.” Let me break this scripture down just a little bit. When it refers to “chase after other gods” its talking about our temporary fixes for example: food, shopping, drinking, racing (yes I said racing), excessive sleeping, not eating, pretty much anything you do to temporarily numb the feeling of pain.

Like David who wrote the Psalms, and Paul and Silas, I love to worship. It may not be my first thing I do when I hear of a loss or experience failure or heartache but I know that my God is in control when I let go and let God do him. Even in writing this, the first thing that came to my mind is timing. There’s a saying that old people used to say, “he may not show up when you want him, but he’s always on time”. God’s timing isn’t the same as ours but in our waiting, we are given the opportunity to either practice the fruits of the spirit which are Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, gentleness, goodness, faithfulness, self-control. Preaching to myself right now lol.

So as you continue on with your day, remember there isn’t anything God won’t do for you! So when you find yourself down and lost, spend sometime in worship with God.

Love ya’ll!

Rearview Mirror

Since I got pulled over for the first time in my college days, I learned a great set of skills when driving. I can tell what type of make/model a vehicle is just by looking at the tail lights in the day time and night, I can tell when the driver has no intentions of moving so there’s no need to flash them or tail them, just make the journey around them and call it a day, and I can tell where each cop is hiding. But the best skill I taught myself was to use the rear view mirror to make certain no one is tailing me, there aren’t any flashing lights and anytime I drive under an overpass, I check to see if there’s a cop on the bridge trying to clock my speed….crazy I know! But how many of us gets stuck looking in the rearview mirror of life?

I felt like this has been occurring a lot these days with summer days dwindling down, folks are talking to folks, getting engaged than married or folks moving onto other careers but I’m still here. Still plowing along and asking God when is my harvest? FOMO (fear of missing out) anyone?

Let’s look at Paul’s letter Philippians. In college we were taught that this was a joyful letter from the jailhouse. So he’s writing this book from a jail cell, to the Philippi folks. Jumping down to verse 12 of chapter 1, Paul is informing his friends that though he has been falsely accused, him being imprisoned is to further the kingdom. Those folks in jail too needs to hear the good news too.  My current position in life is to further the kingdom. Parenting without a partner isn’t easy but I find myself laughing a lot because of my daughter. I recall one morning or afternoon I was reading the word and my lovely daughter comes into my room with no pants but a shirt on. She proceeded to inform me that the bible says no reading. I than advised her that the bible says to put her pants on. Than she said the bible says no reading in her pants…..Seriously?!?!?! where does she come up with this stuff? LOL Well I rebuke her crazy statement quickly.

I’ve been finding joy in my plowing season and realize that the only reason why I look back is because of the what if’s keeps popping into my mind. During my study of the book of Colossians, this verse spoke to me, 2:3 “set your mind on heavenly things not on earthly things”. Makes me wonder, am I truly experiencing FOMO or is my path just designed differently? I believe you can experience FOMO in many different ways. But it is in the way you handle it that shows how either you’ve grown or are stalling in life because your plans aren’t working the way you want them to. Over the weekend, I heard Steve Furtick share this acronym, WDIM aka what does it matter? Kinda using it out of his context but I felt like it could be used here as well. What does it matter that someone else gets the job and you didn’t? What does it matter that someone else gets to go on vacation to Hawaii and you didn’t? What does it matter that you’re still single and ready to mingle but Mr./Miss right still isn’t here yet?

Enjoy the current season you’re in, stopping looking into the rearview mirror for comfort. Like I’ve mentioned in the previous post, change is uncomfortable but that’s the only way to grow.

Happy August!


I find myself needing a lot these days. Needing a husband, more space for a recording studio, more money, more time, more sleep, more travel, more, more, more. But I found myself being challenged by a devotional asking me to identify the needs that God has met for me during the needs. Philippians 4:19 states, “And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches and glory in Jesus Christ”. I’m thinking to myself, alright, if God is meeting all of my needs, why do I feel as if my needs aren’t being met?

I spoke to my friend in Brazil and I started asking her, how has God met all your needs? She had a small list but these were needs that were met. Things that God has foreseen already and is providing now, today. I listed out the needs that God has met that day and then compared to the needs I met of God. (Note: no man or woman can ever meet God’s needs because that’s not what we were created for and its impossible)  but I realized that for anything to actually happen, there was a need for a bi-directional relationship. I got caught up in the planning and looking forward to the future that I’ve forgotten to be happy with the needs that has been needs.

“As I gaze anxiously into the distance, you don’t even feel the strong grip of my hand holding yours, how foolish are you, my child”(S. Young, Jesus Calling).  Mic drop…..I’m legit doing that to God. I want everything in the future so bad that I’ve forgotten to acknowledge God for the now. Instead, I’m behaving like my 4-year-old, when you give her something that she needs, she smacks my hand (this is an example, because she wouldn’t do that…the devil is a liar) but rejects how I can provide her current need. In the words of John B. Crist, “check your heart”! I feel like I should end it right there because he’s amazing…jk.

But to bring this to a closing, realize God is still working on your behalf and will continue to provide for all of your needs. Focusing on the now and not so much on the future allows you to see the many blessings that are occurring on a daily basis.  Don’t get lost in all of the needs, Just trust, He’s got you.


I find myself asking the question when is this going to happen or when is that going to happen and than I stop to listen. I know that this is a conversation that I’m not having alone, I’m pretty much asking God when.

To him, time is just a moment and to me time can drag and or go so fast. There’s something here in this brief moment that God wants me to enjoy. Whether it be enjoying the moment I get to sprawl my body all around the bed because I’m not married yet and don’t have to share it, or not having to worry about having to hire someone to fix something in the apartment, that’s what landlords are for. These moments are to be cherished.

There’s a passage that comes to mind, Hebrews 6:13-15, “For when God made a promise to Abraham, since he had no one greater by whom to swear, he swore by himself, saying, “Surely I will bless you and multiply you.” And thus Abraham, having patiently waited, stained the promise.” Abraham waited for so long and at 100 years old, he had his first child a son. In chapter 11 there are other examples of people who had great faith in God for a new home land, crossing the Red sea, seeing the walls of Jericho fall, judgment to fall on the enemy, birth of a deliverer from slavery etc. This all occurred by faith and what strengthened that faith was time.

MIND BLOWING………….I know!!

I’m glad I had this conversation. I’m glad that I’m not alone in this journey because each and everyone is currently waiting on God for a miracle and a blessing. Enjoy the process of being transformed and not wonder when. Stay strong, God hasn’t forgotten about you! Challenge yourself to be like Abraham!